I can’t remember the last time a read a book. Magazines, sure. The pictures are an escape into a tidy, beautifully decorated world with scrumptious food that I look forward to enjoying some day.
For now, my life is beautiful chaos with two kids. Reading an actual book is something I can’t seem to stay awake for and I’m guessing I’m not the only mama who feels like this.
Most of you know that I popped a tiny human out this past January and it has been a roller coaster of love, joy, pain, and tears. I bounced back after my first little nugget and fully expected to do the same with baby numero dos. Well, anything and everything that could be the polar opposite of my first little guy is happening with my second.
It has been almost nine months and only this week am I actually not waking up three to five times a night, we’ve had naps happen in the crib twice this week, and I am starting to see a glimpse of what an actual schedule can look again.
Rock bottom is where I was before this past week though. My body giving out…sleep deprivation mixed with eating crap food left me feeling like I was falling apart. My patience with my five year old and husband went out the window months ago. I told my husband I felt like I was drowning because I could not come up for air. Most of those conversations happened at 5am after a long night of wake ups with our chunk, but the struggle is real mamas and sleep deprivation is brutal.
What changed? I hired a sleep consultant maaaaaaaany months ago, but because we were in the process of selling a house, moving across the country, and getting settled in temporary housing while we looked for a new house to buy I knew sleep training just wasn’t in the cards.
Sadly, I should have made it a priority because I continued to push through at the expense of my well being. That is what moms do. We always put ourselves last and unfortunately everyone around us suffers as well.
Like I said…rock bottom has been my norm for longer than I’d like to admit. This week was the tipping point because when I thought I was finally somewhat settled hurricane Florence decides to say hello. Things have been touch and go since Monday. Evacuate, wait no, it’s safe to stay. Uh, wait no it’s not safe to stay. Thankfully we are not in Flo’s path and my prayers are with those who are.
I finally broke down and texted a friend asking how she does it with three kids and knowing she has a tiny nugget that wasn’t a good sleeper either.
Her words of encouragement, advice and support gave me the strength to buckle down and put that sleep plan I paid for to work. Thanks, Cara! You really saved me and the article she shared with me was actually from the sleep consulting company I hired. If that isn’t a sign I don’t know what is!
I would be a fool to say all is good, but I am thrilled to report that my chunk has gone form waking up three to five times a night to only two along with actually napping in his crib! I am still in shock, slightly hesitant to embrace this new normal, but ecstatic to have some sort of a schedule. This is the first time since January that life doesn’t feel so out of control. Amen!
Ok, so why am I writing all this in a post about a tired moms book club? Well, because I am a tired mom and I want to read books. It’s not going to happen the traditional way, but thanks to discovering Hoopla Digital through our local library I had an epiphany about creating a tired moms book club.
Audio books are something most of you know about or actually listen to. For me, I have been living under a rock and honestly did not know how easy it is to get your virtual hands on an audio book…for free!
Thanks to having a smidge bit more free time I decided to set up the Hoopla account for my oldest son so we could “borrow” some books from the virtual library. As we searched for kids books I saw the audio books tab and clicked around.
Why did I wait so long to discover this amazing world of people reading to you?!? I seriously am laughing at the fact that it’s 2018, I’m 37, and literally just downloaded my first audio book. Rolling my eyes at myself right now.
This new found discovery (for me…I’m sure you’ve already listened to tons of audio books) left me inspired after only a chapter of Present Over Perfect.
With the last two years of my life challenging me beyond anything I ever expected, I found it appropriate to start with an inspirational/self helpish kind of book.
Present Over Perfect is narrated by the author, Shauna Niequist, and I’m inspired! My thoughts immediately went to a book club, but the kind of book club for tired moms. Those of us who can’t stay awake after turning only a few pages of a real book. We are the moms who want to read, but are tired and need someone to read to us.
So it begins, The Simply Sustainable Nest’s Tired Moms Book Club. Join me each month as we listen (or read if you can stay awake for it) to a new book and then gather virtually over in my community group on Facebook. I’ll hop on live and we can chat about the books we listen to, how it helped us, what we enjoyed most, things we didn’t understand, and words of support and encouragement for the tired community of moms we are.
I’d love for you to join me and explore this book about slowing down, enjoying life, and living in the present over being perfect.
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